by Ash Ingram
from issue 03
I had seenClaire gnaw on monobloc polypropylene chairs like they were bones filled with marrow ready to be sucked. I had seen her suck on the polymer, the heat from her cheeks making the thermoplastic melting into a viscous liquid. She opened her mouth (a wooden stick holding her tongue down) to show the liquid making a lace of saliva and polymer. The lace had no pattern as she didn’t care to think of one. She played with the polymer film and moved her tongue around as if to say “Look at how bad i am being” It was thawing on her filiform mixed with silt from cereal crop; millet. She ate millet four days ago, she spilt much of it onto her hoodie from the GAP.
(CHILDREN SECTION, SIZE MEDIUM, ALTERED AT THE WRISTS WITH A SMALL BRAIDED ELASTIC TO FIT HER LENGTH)Claire’s stomach acid ranked at a level thirteen which meant she was more clever than the methyl grouping in the monobloc chair’s arm so she could melt it and feel it warm against her buccal mucosa. As she became more desolate in the south, she broke it off, she chewed, only stopping to spit out the unmeltable parts. Her eyes widened, like a dog who learned how to open the fridge.
Once she had tasted enough to hit paint and decipher the polymers MFI (melt flow index), she spit the entirety out. She spit it out onto my mothers kitchen tile, a pool flooded with ethylene and saliva bubbles that made popping noises akin to rice krispies seizing in two percent milk. She hunched as if to level with the new toy, and gently slid an ice tray over it. The popping noise ceased, and I heard gushing between her lithe fingers. It hardened against her, a sensation she had known once which resulted in a child with a full head of black hair, as if she had given her own hair. The child grew. She fed him in a teflon high chair, she fed him sour ropes, taffy, large glasses of milk and millet which he spit up from time to time. She enjoyed the child’s face as he opened toys from fast food places, she felt tethered to him from the rear view mirror as she saw him chew lick and suck on the cut rate army men toy made of Acrylonitrile butadiene styrene. Her pool had become moldable and with shaky hands she moved as if throwing clay. She molded it into the shape of a small pastry, a German or French one was not as clear, only that she had a base of a carb,a blanket of some sort of frosting dotted with what seemed to be raspberries but this was hard to tell because everything was white. Dollops of her saliva fell onto the berries, creating a sheen. Claire put it into the freezer.
Claire salivated for days, and started to smell strange. Her skin turned yellow and her heart beated to the tempo of Superstar by the Carpenters. She fell asleep next to me on her extra monobloc chair in front of the tv. I sat on a throne, a rocking chair. I asked her if it hurt, her spine against the polymer and all she said was that her millet was done. The pastry stayed in the icebox, I’d drag a step stool made of wood accented with Polytetrafluoroethylene bearings and I'd look at it from time to time. It had small bites taken out of it. One corner looked as if it was cut with a fork and knife.
Once she had tasted enough to hit paint and decipher the polymers MFI (melt flow index), she spit the entirety out. She spit it out onto my mothers kitchen tile, a pool flooded with ethylene and saliva bubbles that made popping noises akin to rice krispies seizing in two percent milk. She hunched as if to level with the new toy, and gently slid an ice tray over it. The popping noise ceased, and I heard gushing between her lithe fingers. It hardened against her, a sensation she had known once which resulted in a child with a full head of black hair, as if she had given her own hair. The child grew. She fed him in a teflon high chair, she fed him sour ropes, taffy, large glasses of milk and millet which he spit up from time to time. She enjoyed the child’s face as he opened toys from fast food places, she felt tethered to him from the rear view mirror as she saw him chew lick and suck on the cut rate army men toy made of Acrylonitrile butadiene styrene. Her pool had become moldable and with shaky hands she moved as if throwing clay. She molded it into the shape of a small pastry, a German or French one was not as clear, only that she had a base of a carb,a blanket of some sort of frosting dotted with what seemed to be raspberries but this was hard to tell because everything was white. Dollops of her saliva fell onto the berries, creating a sheen. Claire put it into the freezer.
Claire salivated for days, and started to smell strange. Her skin turned yellow and her heart beated to the tempo of Superstar by the Carpenters. She fell asleep next to me on her extra monobloc chair in front of the tv. I sat on a throne, a rocking chair. I asked her if it hurt, her spine against the polymer and all she said was that her millet was done. The pastry stayed in the icebox, I’d drag a step stool made of wood accented with Polytetrafluoroethylene bearings and I'd look at it from time to time. It had small bites taken out of it. One corner looked as if it was cut with a fork and knife.
Claire’s coffin was made by a distributor in Shenzen, Item # FU91693 , it was collapsible 5ft long when assembled and made of fabric and held together by wire framing. The man who hardened against claire and gave her one child did not have money for a real coffin, so opted to order a coffin used for front lawn halloween decorations. Initially he searched for a toy coffin made of polypropylene but the price of Item # FU91693 was more attractive. Everyone also figured because she weighed so little the fabric would not rip, only sag. Which was right.
Her child with its black full head of hair sat on his fathers lap, my mother, brother, grandfather and i sat in the third row. My grandfather watched his sister sag near the grass, and even through the fabric you could see Claire's sacrum bones taunting crustacean bugs who were looking for something to nestle on or under. The fabric was slightly sheer and you could tell what Claire was wearing. A pinafore dress
(THE CHILDREN’S GAP, SIZE LARGE, ADJUSTABLE STRAPS WITH POLYEPOXIDE BUTTONS AND A COIL NYLON ZIPPER)Her child with its black full head of hair sat on his fathers lap, my mother, brother, grandfather and i sat in the third row. My grandfather watched his sister sag near the grass, and even through the fabric you could see Claire's sacrum bones taunting crustacean bugs who were looking for something to nestle on or under. The fabric was slightly sheer and you could tell what Claire was wearing. A pinafore dress
no one acknowledged this.
I believed for a second that I could see her left ring finer, but it was just a taraxcum flower that grew to be plump and yellow, it was not her yellow hand that threw the polymer delicacies. They buried her, the boys who dropped out of the high school nearby and needed quick money. They did not struggle to hoist her down. For a second, I believe she may have unzipped # FU916933 and spit out more polymer or thrown up bile or asked for a real hamburger, a real one. But she did not.
They threw dirt over her face. I imagined her opening her mouth to catch the soil, finally eating, digesting, pleading, reckoning, replevying. My grandfather gritted his teeth as one of the boys burying his sister hit her foot with a ULINE shovel which had a 14x17” blade. We all shifted towards the front of our seats when we heard the ULINE shovel which had a 14x17” blade hit her tendon which had metallised.
Sifting through heavy breaths and guilt we made out way to the reception room at the church. I looked at the ceiling and thought if I looked hard enough my eyes could break the ceiling and see her in heaven at a Mcdonald’s, one which had a polyvinyl chloride jungle gym I could feel my bare feet suction on and off of . Asbestos ceiled church tops did not reveal this to me, but instead snowed slightly landing on my hair, and I ate it. It melted onto my tongue like LSD or a listerine strip with microcrystalline cellulose and maltodextrin making a film of satisfaction on the apex of my tongue for being like Claire and eating but not really.
I was young, they showed a photo of her at the front of the church recreation room meant for baptism or first communion parties. I ate salty tears and more of the gifted toiled chains of magnesium, iron, calcium, aluminum, and sodium that the generous popcorn ceiling offered me to not think about her sagging body. I chewed on a Polyethylene Terephthalate cup filled with grape juice. When this did not satisfy me I ran a S-7305 5 3/4” ULINE spoon against my baby teeth hearing as it ricocheted against my lateral incisors. I stomped my feet against the olefin carpeted floor, and my 196983114503 093-01-9923 Polyurethane 84% Recycled PET (Polyethylene Terephthalate) and 16% Polyester , 57% Polyester and 43% TPR (Thermoplastic Rubber) Imported ballet flats with low-resilience polyurethane foam memory foam insoles made noises to alert my mother I was of ill nature. I rubbed my lipids, proteins, electrolytes, enzymes and metabolites on her #518080 GAP Polyester 63%, Rayon 33%, Spandex 4%Machine washed, Imported, 24 3⁄4, 31 1⁄4, 30 3⁄4, shift silhouette Soft woven mini dress, Crewneck, Sleeveless dress with a pocket at the hips. She hands me a
They threw dirt over her face. I imagined her opening her mouth to catch the soil, finally eating, digesting, pleading, reckoning, replevying. My grandfather gritted his teeth as one of the boys burying his sister hit her foot with a ULINE shovel which had a 14x17” blade. We all shifted towards the front of our seats when we heard the ULINE shovel which had a 14x17” blade hit her tendon which had metallised.
Sifting through heavy breaths and guilt we made out way to the reception room at the church. I looked at the ceiling and thought if I looked hard enough my eyes could break the ceiling and see her in heaven at a Mcdonald’s, one which had a polyvinyl chloride jungle gym I could feel my bare feet suction on and off of . Asbestos ceiled church tops did not reveal this to me, but instead snowed slightly landing on my hair, and I ate it. It melted onto my tongue like LSD or a listerine strip with microcrystalline cellulose and maltodextrin making a film of satisfaction on the apex of my tongue for being like Claire and eating but not really.
I was young, they showed a photo of her at the front of the church recreation room meant for baptism or first communion parties. I ate salty tears and more of the gifted toiled chains of magnesium, iron, calcium, aluminum, and sodium that the generous popcorn ceiling offered me to not think about her sagging body. I chewed on a Polyethylene Terephthalate cup filled with grape juice. When this did not satisfy me I ran a S-7305 5 3/4” ULINE spoon against my baby teeth hearing as it ricocheted against my lateral incisors. I stomped my feet against the olefin carpeted floor, and my 196983114503 093-01-9923 Polyurethane 84% Recycled PET (Polyethylene Terephthalate) and 16% Polyester , 57% Polyester and 43% TPR (Thermoplastic Rubber) Imported ballet flats with low-resilience polyurethane foam memory foam insoles made noises to alert my mother I was of ill nature. I rubbed my lipids, proteins, electrolytes, enzymes and metabolites on her #518080 GAP Polyester 63%, Rayon 33%, Spandex 4%Machine washed, Imported, 24 3⁄4, 31 1⁄4, 30 3⁄4, shift silhouette Soft woven mini dress, Crewneck, Sleeveless dress with a pocket at the hips. She hands me a
Petrochemical, Isopropyl palmitate, Dimethicone, Tocopheryl Acetate, Cocoa Nucifera Oil, and Aloe Vera Extract
tissue, and I release my colloids of inorganic salts, lysosymes, immunoglobins, glycoproteins, and lactoferrins.
She raises me to her lap, we are close to each others face, i can smell
monoterpenoid organic compounds with chemical formula C10H20O which Geranyl diphosphate synthase (GPPS) first catalyzes the reaction of IPP and DMAPP into geranyl diphosphate (−)-limonene synthase (LS) catalyzes the cyclization of geranyl diphosphate to (−)-limonene (−)-Limonene-3-hydroxylase (L3OH), using O2 and then nicotinamide adenine dinucleotide phosphate (NADPH) catalyzes the allylic hydroxylation of (−)-limonene at the 3 position to (−)-trans-isopiperitenol.(−)-trans-Isopiperitenol dehydrogenase (iPD) further oxidizes the hydroxyl group on the 3 position using NAD+ to make(−)-isopiperitenone.(−)-Isopiperitenone reductase (iPR) then reduces the double bond between carbons 1 and 2 using NADPH to form (+)-cis-isopulegone(+)-cis-Isopulegone isomerase (iPI) then isomerizes the remaining double bond to form (+)-pulegone.(+)-Pulegone reductase (PR) reduces this double bond using NADPH to form (−)-menthone.(−)-Menthone reductase (MR) then reduces the carbonyl group using NADPH to form (−)-menthol.[13]which makes her breath smell good but not real.
We rock back and forth and back and forth on the
31.75“ H x 21” W x 22.5” D 17” H 25” H 6.9lb Polypropylene Polipropene 25 [USAN]; Propene polymers; Poly(1-methylethylene) of PP is between 0.895 and 0.93 g/cm3. ultra-high-molecular-weight polyethylenewithprime synthetic resin with ultra-violet inhibitors Impervious to salt air and most common stains.which is Fade Resistant; Rust Resistant; UV Resistant; Weather Resistant; Stain Resistant,D638 D790 D256 D648 D570
and can hold up to 300 pounds and rock back and forth and back and forth and back and forth my mom whispers things to me but i can smell the monoterpenoid organic compounds with chemical formula C10H20O which Geranyl diphosphate synthase (GPPS) first catalyzes the reaction of IPP and DMAPP into geranyl diphosphate (−)-limonene synthase (LS) catalyzes the cyclization of geranyl diphosphate to (−)-limonene (−)-Limonene-3-hydroxylase (L3OH), using O2 and then nicotinamide adenine dinucleotide phosphate (NADPH) catalyzes the allylic hydroxylation of (−)-limonene at the 3 position to (−)-trans-isopiperitenol.(−)-trans-Isopiperitenol dehydrogenase (iPD) further oxidizes the hydroxyl group on the 3 position using NAD+ to make(−)-isopiperitenone.(−)-Isopiperitenone reductase (iPR) then reduces the double bond between carbons 1 and 2 using NADPH to form (+)-cis-isopulegone(+)-cis-Isopulegone isomerase (iPI) then isomerizes the remaining double bond to form (+)-pulegone.(+)-Pulegone reductase (PR) reduces this double bond using NADPH to form (−)-menthone.(−)-Menthone reductase (MR) then reduces the carbonyl group using NADPH to form (−)-menthol.[13] on her breath which makes her feel austere and not of a place i once inhabited. I jerk my neck over and begin to chew on the
31.75“ H x 21” W x 22.5” D 17” H 25” H 6.9lb Polypropylene Polipropene 25 [USAN]; Propene polymers; Poly(1-methylethylene) of PP is between 0.895 and 0.93 g/cm3. ultra-high-molecular-weight polyethylenewithprime synthetic resin with ultra-violet inhibitors Impervious to salt air and most common stains.which is Fade Resistant; Rust Resistant; UV Resistant; Weather Resistant; Stain Resistant,D638 D790 D256 D648 D570
it tastes so good i continued to chew on the
31.75“ H x 21” W x 22.5” D 17” H 25” H 6.9lb Polypropylene Polipropene 25 [USAN]; Propene polymers; Poly(1-methylethylene) of PP is between 0.895 and 0.93 g/cm3. ultra-high-molecular-weight polyethylenewithprime synthetic resin with ultra-violet inhibitors Impervious to salt air and most common stains.which is Fade Resistant; Rust Resistant; UV Resistant; Weather Resistant; Stain Resistant,D638 D790 D256 D648 D570
which felt good so i ate more of the
31.75“ H x 21” W x 22.5” D 17” H 25” H 6.9lb Polypropylene Polipropene 25 [USAN]; Propene polymers; Poly(1-methylethylene) of PP is between 0.895 and 0.93 g/cm3. ultra-high-molecular-weight polyethylenewithprime synthetic resin with ultra-violet inhibitors Impervious to salt air and most common stains.which is Fade Resistant; Rust Resistant; UV Resistant; Weather Resistant; Stain Resistant,D638 D790 D256 D648 D570
and washed it down with
Water, C10-12 alcohol ethoxylates, sodium secondary C13-18 alkyl sulfonate, fragrance, citric acid, colorant, xanthan gum and preservative
31.75“ H x 21” W x 22.5” D 17” H 25” H 6.9lb Polypropylene Polipropene 25 [USAN]; Propene polymers; Poly(1-methylethylene) of PP is between 0.895 and 0.93 g/cm3. ultra-high-molecular-weight polyethylenewithprime synthetic resin with ultra-violet inhibitors Impervious to salt air and most common stains.which is Fade Resistant; Rust Resistant; UV Resistant; Weather Resistant; Stain Resistant,D638 D790 D256 D648 D570
Water, C10-12 alcohol ethoxylates, sodium secondary C13-18 alkyl sulfonate, fragrance, citric acid, colorant, xanthan gum and preservative
31.75“ H x 21” W x 22.5” D 17” H 25” H 6.9lb Polypropylene Polipropene 25 [USAN]; Propene polymers; Poly(1-methylethylene) of PP is between 0.895 and 0.93 g/cm3. ultra-high-molecular-weight polyethylenewithprime synthetic resin with ultra-violet inhibitors Impervious to salt air and most common stains.which is Fade Resistant; Rust Resistant; UV Resistant; Weather Resistant; Stain Resistant,D638 D790 D256 D648 D570
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